Kaypricorn

Love, love, love, you keep making me think...did I make the right decision? Is this the right one? Is this  where I can plant everything that is me and be welcomed. It almost always starts off feeling so perfect so in-sync just to eventually fade like some cheap clothes. Then sets in this heaviness in my stomach and in my entire body just feels like a burden, like I'm walking around in dirty clothes.  This gets even more difficult as time goes on, I find myself trying and trying and trying to mend things that I never broke in the first place. I find myself strategizing on how can I revive things back to where they were in the beginning but after a while I begin to notice the difficulty in this process.     Truly I was the only one who was trying to find solutions with every conflict, they've always just gone seeking someone else to mend them, someone else to do damage control. So I ever so often became the "instigator" who should be left alone, I'm not accountab...